Awareness

Awareness: Dec 18 2017
Discovering all of your traits and habits that may not be yours alone is fascinating. Revisiting your childhood gives you a reflection of how your peers and family attitudes have imprinted on how you look and treat others. We learn from everyone around us mostly from example and then too often, we emulate what we have seen. At a tender age, you take on their views of how to cope, deal and move forward in life. Good and Bad attitudes are imprinted in our cellular memory.
This is just one of the attitudes I am working through:
I am over compassionate and I GO THE EXTRA MILE for those who are emotionally and financially distraught.  Over the years my daughter would often ask why I would do so much for others? I have inherited an overwhelming compassion, sometimes to my  personal detriment to assist others. Doing work on becoming aware of personal choices from my childhood has helped me grow tremendously in knowing when to have compassion and when to step back.
My stepfather had POLIO as a child and was in an iron lung until two  operations allowed him to live a normal life. His caregivers WENT THE EXTRA MILE to get him on his feet.  His mother sold her two  investment homes for the operations. . This was his mothers retirement money and many had to assist him  during that period of time.  This left my dad with a burden of guilt that affected every aspect of  life and how he treated everyone. Here is an example of one of the traits I have taken on by example.
Every time my aunt was expecting. He would bring the rest of the kids to our house during the summer months, so she could rest up. This happened until he moved them into the house next to us. My dad had a good job as a foreman on the Niagara Power Project.  I often went shopping  for groceries and he would fill the shopping cart to the brim. When we arrived  home half of the groceries went  to feed my aunt, uncle and five children, who lived next door.
In the review of my childhood I was aware that in his passing, this family were more concerned about their loss of financial support from my dad, than in my mothers' loss. He also left her with no income or  insurance and three small children.
As I review this period of time I saw how his view of guilt and taking care of others affects me. It became my norm. I  have a better concept of when to assist and when to step back and allow the experience to enhance the individuals life. When we constantly do for others it is our need to feel good and take the personal responsibility to learn and grow away from them. in love and light
Everyone, lives the life of their choosing.Not just what they choose, but what they are choosing.